Hebrews 5

7 During the days of Jesus’ life on earth, he offered up prayers and petitions with fervent cries and tears to the one who could save him from death, and he was heard because of his reverent submission. 
Maybe I haven't been growing with God or feeling numb because I rebel against him. I'm not honest with Lifegroup and don't go into detail my specific struggles this I am rebelling against God Galatians 6:2 Carry each other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ I consistently neglect God's Church, not in an evil intended manner but more so out of fear and prejudice. So when I pray to God, it can feels as if i'm praying "Help me serve you, but ignore this part in my life".