2 Corinthians 12

"my grace is sufficient for you, my strength is made perfect in weakness" (v9) Paul mentions again that he is reluctant to boast about himself except what forces him to rely on God (his weaknesses). Paul requested God many times for the "the thorn" to be removed but instead God gave him the constant availability of divine grace in order to persevere through life. Although no pleasure is taken in suffering, Paul rejoices that God is working and being revealed to others through him. He financially supported himself by making tents, thus never making himself a burden to the Corinthians and yet they seemed to think lower of him for rejecting financial support. So after accusation and accusation from the false apostles, Paul is frustrated that members of the congregation he started could question his authenticity. He defends his character, his associates and his ministry, reminding the church that he is jealous for their hearts, not their money. He labours for them, gladly, because he loves them and feels like a father towards them. Because God loves them. 

What I love about the Old Testament is that the most powerful Godly men were weak. Samson was strong in weakness, he destroyed the enemies of God. David was strong in weakness, he became King and lead his people towards God. Joseph was strong in weakness, God raised him to political power and saved Egypt from the casualties of drought. Job was strong in weakness, he lost everything and still proclaimed God is worthy. 

God is jealous for me! God loves me so much that he wants me to be humbled even to the point he'll literally allow satan to torture me to assist in my humility. What Satan throws can be painful, but is always purposeful. The more weaker or damaged I can be, the more clearly the results of God's grace can be shown. God doesn't take away my trials, but He increases the grace! While I'm in this period of self chastising, I hope I will face troubles head on knowing that God doesn't allow trials to pass for no reason. When me, a retarded dropkick with little to no future asks God for relief, he'll give me unrest and exposure. I ask for power, and God gave it to me. From the day I became a Christian God gave me power, and that power is weakness. 

WEAKNESS. IS. POWER.