John 12: 20 - 50

John 12: 25 - We should be so deadset into living for christ that we should hate our life on this earth in the ways that it stumbles us and our relationship with God. My self-centred thinking has been the leading cause for disappointment and discontent in my life, because I crave the self glorification this world offers me. I want to crave Jesus but my pride is longing to surround myself with those who I really do belong with. I have no idea how to stop this and idk when it will

Romans 7: 15-20
15 I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16 And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17 As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18 For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19 For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20 Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.