1 John

9If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. 10If we claim we have not sinned, we make him out to be a liar and his word is not in us.
This is both comforting and guilt trip. I prayed for years to find acceptance in the church even though I didn't know God at the time, yet he still answered.  Through scripture no matter how many times we break our promises to him, he's consistently faithful. He can never betray his own character. I am saved through grace and in a way I can wrongfully take advantage of this, "God will forgive me if I lie, manipulate, objectify, make unproductive use of my time" or "this will be the last time". True repentance means i'm committing to change, not just refraining from sin but HATING it. I can't refrain from temptation in a justifiable manner if the intention isn't backed up by God, and usually my change is temporary as I fall under it over and over again. I need to consistently pray for God to make me love him more than myself because whatever technique i'm doing since the cut off, hasn't been going very well.