Romans 6

1 shall we say, then? Shall we go on sinning so that grace may increase? 2 By no means! We are those who have died to sin; how can we live in it any longer?
God’s forgiveness does not lessen the detrimental corruption of sin and how much it offends our creator, after all, he did go so far as to send His pure untainted son to take the punishment for which we should've received. Us treating God’s forgiveness as something we can take advantage of shows how little we take sin seriously. This can be a pretty serious case for me especially for certain habits I have. Such as I feel as if God calls me to reach out to a employee but I push it off. When I submit to my shameful addictions just for 2 minutes of pleasure.

17 But thanks be to God that, though you used to be slaves to sin, you have come to obey from your heart the pattern of teaching that has now claimed your allegiance.
This makes me uncomfortable. It's verses like this that can really challenge my thoughts on my salvation. Am i saved? Am I a Christian? Am i still a slave to sin? Why am I ever so tempted by my sin that it feels more of a struggle I have to pull through rather than viewing it as an experience to help me grow. It took me almost a month to stop being tempted by the drugs that are consumed in my very home, legal and otherwise. After my vow with P Matt I would every now and again ever so intensely hold a cigarette and just sniff the tobacco and fantasise the smoke vaporise. I recognise these as growing pains but it doesn't feel as much, but rather halfhearted. Seems to me that even if my actions are obedient my heart is not because my fantasies can go rampant in hedonistic ambitions.