Romans 11

8 as it is written:

“God gave them a spirit of stupor,
    eyes that could not see
    and ears that could not hear,
to this very day.”

9 And David says:

“May their table become a snare and a trap,
    a stumbling block and a retribution for them.
  10 May their eyes be darkened so they cannot see,
    and their backs be bent forever.”

If we continue to push aside ourselves from God's calling/gospel, we'll eventually cease to understand it. I've been experiencing this neglect for the past several weeks. I tend indulge myself in worldly thoughts and deeds when my prayer life is lacking. This is a scary thought as I should remember what had happened to Israel when they started rationalising their sins and becoming more accustomed to the pagan culture surrounding them.Therefore God gave them over in the sinful desires of their hearts to sexual impurity for the degrading of their bodies with one another. (Romans 1:24)

34 34   “Who has known the mind of the Lord?
      Or who has been his counselor?
35 35   “Who has ever given to God,
      that God should repay them?”
36 36   For from him and through him and for him are all things.      To him be the glory forever! Amen.

I when I was immature in my faith I'd question the unfortunate endeavours I experienced and curse His name, feeling entitled that life shouldn't bring so much pain. This shows me of how limited my understanding is of God and his intentions. God alone is omnipotent and sovereign so I'm unable to justifiably criticise or question his ways