Romans 9

3 For I could wish that I myself were cursed and cut off from Christ for the sake of my people, those of my own race
This is just straight up confronting because i'm so grateful for the salvation that took so much sacrifice to be give me. For Paul to wish that he could suffer unceasing anguish in place of his people sounds just absurd, and it's a type of love i'm not sure I want to aspire towards. However it definitely makes me think just how concerned am I for unbelievers and how often I prioritise myself. It wasn't only Paul's intelligence that made him a great missionary, for just as Francis Chan says "Knowledge is essential, but not sufficient". It was also Pau's love for people mixed with his intelligence that produced the large results that came.